very drunk

although i do not know how drunk i am, after all i am writing a blog entry, but i did have to type in my password 3 or four times, i don't remember how many times, to log on, but clearly, to me, i am drunk.......

it makes you wonder.... i am definately too drunk to drive, and surely would not, but if this is legable, i will not edit so that i can laugh at myself later, then then it means that i might be comperhensible enough to fool a cop, or really be under .08%, it means that i could be driving right now!!!!!!!!

anyway, the reason i decided to write this blog is because i am drunk, but also because i hurt my foot and therefore cannot go to martial arts, which helps me to handle my stress, thus i am really stress (so i got drunk) and i thought that ranting would release my stress so that i will be less stressed. so what an i stressed about? at work they are jerking me around about whether i am getting a promotion...... so i handed in my two weeks notice, after all who wants to deal with being jerked around, well the two weeks is up tomorrow and my manager is telling me to be patient because he will help me to get it (although he has jerked me around in the past)........ god i do not know what to do!!!! they are making me do the job of a manager but not paying for it, making me realize that i am being explotated, but i really want the job...... so what do i do??

i want the job because i know i can fix the (cloathing) department, but i am not willing to be exploted, after all why give me the promotion if you can explote me and get me to do it anyway?

fuck it is too much stress..... it is a big raise...... and nice title....... should i quit?? with the extra money i can take up another martial art, but the job is a lot of work and i am not garenteed it because they are jerking me around..........

fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus i am beyound sexually frustrated, i am socially akward so it is hard to get a boyfriend.... grrrrr........... then i go to muay thai (to work out, not do MT because of my foot) and see a guy that is beyond hot, and furthers my frustration, which i cannot take out on physical activity because i hurt my foot......

i dunno if i can write much more because the alcohol really just hit me so good night!!!