God i fucking hate traffic!

what the fuck is wrong with this city?? would it kill them to make a decent road system? gee, i wonder what would be a great idea... i know, let's over develop areas that cannot handle more people!! people will love that. traffic jams and store line ups are relaxing. the fuckers who make these desicions probably live no where near where they control.

today is too hot. i feel like doing nothing. i should go to martial arts, but i am finding it too easy to justify not going.... last two classes my feet were getting sore and feeling stressed, so i do not want to risk it, but really i think that the time off due to injury has just gotten me out of shape and now i am just being a pussy. but when it is 32C outside, you were told to ease back into things, and you are fucking lazy, it is not a bad idea to get back into the swing of things slower. the guilt sucks. but i will be taking martial arts the rest of my life. i think it will take four/five months total (including the time i could not do anything while injured) to get back to where i was. which in the grand scheme of my life time amounts to nothing. fuck, i just justified not going. i know i am not going to go at this point, but now the guilt is killing me. at least saturday i am having a facebook meet up with local martial artist to practice. that counts as time doing things. and besides i have until september before i start teaching martial arts and need to be in really good shape.