Monday

Fuck am i tired!!! god i hate mornings. and not even just Monday mornings, although they do have a special place in my organ that contains hate. i just want to sleep here at my desk (back with the temp agency so the term "my desk" is variable). and the true tragedy here is that my bed is so cozy!!! i can close my eyes and imagine how soft and cuddly it is. and warm!! i am cold right now.... not so cold that i am angry or on the verge of tears, like in some places, but i definitely wish to be warmer.

this day has barely started and already i wish it were done. i suppose it does not help that i have been sick lately. there was a horrible flu going around, which of course i did get, and i don't think i have recovered yet. i got it a long time ago... about a month... but it is the type of sickness that you really do need to just rest to recover from. sadly that was not an option for me. i took some days off, but not nearly enough.

.... i am still thinking about my bed. i do not even know how i managed the strength of will to get out of bed this morning. and what really sucks is that when i go home i will want a nap... which i cannot do because i have to go to martial arts and if i sleep when i get home i get lazy and end up skipping class. and by the time i can go to bed, tonight, my insomnia will kick in preventing me from doing so!!

i can barely keep my eyes open right now! i better get some coffee... but the problem with coffee is that t really wrecks my system. i get horrible stomach cramps and feel sick. i would make tea, but we do not have any milk or even lemon here for me to add. i could drink it black with sugar, but the type of tea we have here i prefer with milk.

damn it, damn it, damn it!! i want to put on my winter jacket, get all warm and toasty and curl up on the couch!!! oh yes, my day gets worse..... guess what is directly in front of me! a little waiting area (that is never used) with two big puffy coaches! i could totally curl up on one and sleep for hours!